Change.

You mourn certain losses in life more than others.

Not of people, but those cuts that dig deep into your soul, little things you had hoped for; you watch them slip through your fingers and you're bereft. 

Things are changing again. 

It's painful change, the kind that makes that knot in your throat swell until it's hard to breathe through the tears you tried so hard not to shed.

It's finally time to walk backwards a little, reembrace the past, but with a whole new perspective. 

There's a lot going on. 

There's so much I need to fix, and change, and do. 

I just hope that with a little push, some boundless optimism, and a prayer, I can get back to where things need to be. 

At this time, I'm also removing numerous old posts. That chapter is over. It's time for something new.